dilemma
Wednesday, January 24, 2007 @ 3:27 AM
Weeks have passed like crazy . First i stayed alone , then SYF is getting more tense by each practice . Thirdly , Olevel's coming and teachers are getting fiercer and fiercer each day . Now this ...
The fact that i'm staying alone right now may cause blitheness in me . But it's undeniable that i still need my parents by my side . I called my Daddy twice to call for his presence . He said " He'll ARRANGE time ." What am i ? His customer ? On the 4th call i told him that i have NO more cash with me and he came the next day . That means he CAN and COULD come , but he just refused to .
This morning , i asked him whether he could bring my stuffs for lunch time concert as i left it , he came with a fierce expression and brought the wrong top . I TOLD HIM NICELY and he reprimanded me and went into the taxi . And my parents said that i hurt them ? Who hurt who ? I am a human with feelings and sensitivity .
And just now when he reached home he asked me whether i've eaten and would like to go to Great World for dinner . Do i look like a persn who'd have mood swings and just forget what happened like 6 hours ago ?! Of course i gave him a bad attitude .
Then he said he's going back to Indonesia tomorrow .
You know how much i long for his presence and when he comes he just hurt me like that . I can't just go after him and said i want to go with you . I am angry inside yet i feel so regretful . =( And people can look at me and say , " You're so perfect . You've got money , looks , talents and brain "
RIIIGHT ..
