It's Monday and I am seriously not going out at all, despite the fact that there is no school, because I am gravely tired. Can you believe it!? I went to church 3 times this week as our church had a Healing Movement Camp.

I know that it would seem weird and/or superficial because I am not exactly what you would call a "lily-white." I like dancing (in dance classes and clubs), and I am taking a major that supports the many of the causes that pretty much opposed to the world of Christianity; Fashion Marketing.

Trust me, I am confused myself. What am I going to do?

Still, I am not going to discussed the above question, as I am still on way into discovering it. One step at a time yeah?
I just want to share with you guys the words that provoked something in me when I listened to the pastors:

1) You are worthy, and nobody... NOBODY in this world eligible enough to judge you, except God.

2) Sometimes in life, the right things you do may seemed stupid to others. However, at some point of life, perhaps faith is a better choice than logic.

With this 2 points, I want to relate back to a story of Terry Fox that Dio's father, also yesterday's pastor, shared with the church.

Terry Fox is not unfamiliar in Canada because this street/area name is used in many parts of Canada.
And usually, only historical heroes or memorable individual have the privilege to be named after a place and thus, Dio's dad curiosity aroused and decided to ask a Canadian about him:

Terry Fox is an active youth who was born in Canada, and was determined to join the Olympic for the Marathon, and thus, had been training since the age of 17.
At the age of 18 however, he was diagnosed with bone cancer and was recommended by his doctor to amputate his right leg, for a chance to live longer. This claim however, was not a certain claim as the doctor himself had his doubts about how much longer he could live if he were to really amputate his leg. As such, Terry Fox declined this offer, and decided to keep his leg, leaving approximately a year for himself to live.
Instead of wasting life through frustration and depression, he decided to still run, and not for the olympic as he knew he was already incapable of running despite his desire.
He then participated in the Marathon of Hope, which is a run, to support, to raise funds for cancer patients like himself. He was determined to run across Canada despite his leg, despite the pain he experienced whilst running, despite the exhaustion he faced during the run.
After 143 days however, Terry was forced to stop as his cancer had spread to his lungs, and he died at the age of 22.

To some people, it would seemed futile, or even stupid, that a man who only had a few years did not want to fulfil his life, that he refused to amputate his leg for a longer life. However, he managed to raise $400 million for the people that may have a chance to live longer. The death of 1 youth, awakened a million people that initially had given up on their life due to bankruptcy, due to the death of a loved one, due to terminal illnesses.
How can they not be awakened? When a man who was dying was striving to complete a run with excruciating pain? Not willing to give up, or give in to his malady.

Terry Fox, to us may seemed dumb at first, but to God, to many of the people who had received hope through his actions... is indeed a hero.


Have you ever dreamt of starting your life anew?
Have you ever wanted to improve yourself?
Have you ever experienced what I am about to jot down?

Before I came to Seattle, I really thought that it would be the perfect opportunity to change my old-self. Initially, all I wanted was a local best friend, a good result and a well-controlled bank account. To me, these three are probably the quintessence for my life in Seattle.

However now that I am here, I have not accomplished any of this three, well, except the good friends part, maybe. As for the rest... my results have not been satisfying, and the balance in my bank account is continuously used frivolously.
Almost every day, my indolence would eat up my plans, Almost every week, I would be purchasing something new, and almost all the time, I would be trying so hard to please everyone.

I hate sounding so helpless!

I just want to mark this day, this post, as my turning point in life.

And now, I am going to start by turning up to school ON TIME (yeah, I, Stephanie Juniarta, "never fails to turn up late" according to one of my instructor). So I got to go take a shower now =D

So yeah, wish me luck!



Maria's camera
Stephanie's camera (not mine)So I went to All-In with Andre, Fuji and Jahja last night and, that is basically everything. I mean it's a club, people go, people drink, people talk, people dance and bleah, there is actually nothing to talk about, really.

Wait actually there's one thing to talk about.. my legs hurt like crap! I think it is due to the one year break from dance classes plus, three hours of non-stop dance last night. Boohoo! I think I am losing my flexibility.
Can you imagine this scenario:
Mr Dan (my dance instructor) to the junior dancers: OK dance girls, this is our senior, Stephanie and she's here to demonstrate the split that I used to torture them into doing.
ME: *set my feet apart slowly*
-20 cm later-
ME: Cannot already, cannot already!
-a moment of silence in the dance studio-
Urrrh, can you say social suicide!

Seriously, I need an organized schedule to stick to. Or else I would not be able to get things done! I.E. Saturday's dance class which I have missed for three times now.

Anyways, last night, I saw MM, who used to be my good friend in Secondary School. I am really glad we talked. Even though we are not as closed as we used to be, I'm really glad that we are still friends, or at least acquaintance =)

When I told my sister about this, she said that MM is a pretty cool person, unlike her frenemy who kept broading over their childhoood squable, and then spreading the rumours of the supposedly overlooked past.

Honestly, I do not really know what caused our gradual estrangement, but I am really glad that we are still talking, with hopefully no hard feelings.

Her and I, we used to have the same thoughts, the same point of view, live in the same area and have the same birthday! We were pretty much alike, but of course, she is hotter ;p
Oh! And we met in the most unusual way, we talked to each other randomly, in the library, and then everything started happening so fast, the friendship... the partition.

I know that this would seemed really unimportant and exaggerating, somehow.
However to me, friends; true friends, are really imperative.
My four years in Singapore, without my siblings, nor parents by my side, I only had these great friends. Whether or not they were friends or enemies, each of them moulded me into who I am today, each of them brings something to the table, and allow me to understand something, to realize something, and experience something that make my life interesting, and meaningful.

Good memories are meant to be treasured, bad memories are meant to be reflected upon.

Don't you agree readers? :)


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I miss the girl who hugged me whenever she had missed me

I miss the girl who claimed her "best angle" when taking pictures

I miss the girl who partnered me whenever we are in the KTV lounge

I miss the girl who danced wu niang with me

I miss the girl who hid her face in the blanket and told me she hated me to my face

I miss the girl who talked to a poster in the middle of the night

I miss the girl who helped me clean my house

I miss the girl who cooked me an over-cooked blood when I was undergoing low-blood
pressure

I miss the girl who brought me porridge and banana when I was sick

I miss the girl who insisted that I teach her piano

I miss the girl who continuously pestered me to teach her Science

I miss the girl who cried as if she was the most vulnerable thing whenever she is sad

I miss the girl who always failed to give me a surprise cause it's not surprising

I miss the girl who taught me how to take a bus from Mommy's house

I miss the girl who had the same short skirt and would always hide together

I miss the girl who brought many pins in case our teacher caught our hair

I miss the girl who supported me in whichever decision I choose

I miss the girl who took silly pictures with me

I miss the girl who prank-ed people in Cineleisure with me

I miss the girl who lied about not sending me to the airport

I miss the girl who bawled on the phone when I left Changi Airport

I miss the girl who loved me for who I am

I miss the someone whom I could call a genuine "say"


I miss you, Jessica Ang Shi Shi =(

car, daddy, car!

Thursday, November 13, 2008 @ 11:59 AM

OK, I have no idea what is into me nowadays but I just can't stop blabbering!

If you are my loyal blog readers, you should know that I am known for neglecting my blog for at least a week before updating it with another post!

Apparently, that habit is going to change.

I AM SO FRIGGIN' TALKATIVE THAT I HAVE ALREADY USED FIVE LINES TO BABBLE ON HOW TALKATIVE I AM.

Anyways, I wish I had a car =( I know, I know, it is so against my previous belief but like I said, people change right! 2 seconds ago, I am not I am, I am who I was.
As confusing as that may sound.

Regardless, DADDY, I want a car!

I hate the rainy weather in Seattle. It makes me wish I had a car like, almost 16 hours out of the day! And that 8 hours of not wishing I had a car is simply because I am asleep!
WELL, unless I dreamt that I wish I had a car, then maybe it is more than that 16 hours.

Ignoring all of the jabber above, I received a letter from the International Student Advisor just now.
*heart beat*
I have to see them ASAP.
*praying hard*
There is a "warning" under the status heading.
*heart skipped a beat*
ARHH! I am so going there later.

UPDATE: It was nothing, they just needed a copy of my insurance =)

Anyways, I bought something extremely exciting in Uwajimaya (a japanese supermarket)!
Recognize this??
IT'S CHOCOBI!
The snack that obstreperous Shin-chan loves!
I know this would seem really childish, but I can't help it. It just gives this fluffy warm feeling to my inner child...

indogosipgurl's denseness

Monday, November 10, 2008 @ 2:34 AM

Do I... *GASP* see a sign of racism??

HIN & thoughts
Remember this post readers?

Read it once more, with complete comprehension of the post before crticising my character through the difference of thoughts that I, Stephanie Juniarta, was delivering.

Of course, with your incommensurate English, and your inconsiderably low level of intellect, it is really easy to misunderstand what an author is trying to convey in her message.
As a loyal follower of God, as you have mentioned me to be, or as what you presume; that all Christians are holy pure, I thereby forgive your farcical comment.
Amen.

thanks for the popularity

Sunday, November 09, 2008 @ 9:46 AM

OK, so I'm sure most of you have seen the indogurl's gossip page where my delightful post about shelvy was pasted on the note.

Bwahaha thanks! It was a one day post and she managed to call me a "backstabbing bitch" from that post?

How do you judge a person from a post may I ask EVERY one of you?

When you are mad, my dear stranger, you say mean stuffs, and I don't think that a day's post of anger is worth of all that hype, and my my, you have a lot of anger installed in your system, don't you? ;)

And if that post were meant to be private, I wouldn't have wrote it on the public blog honey~~

Quote from GG "You're nobody until you're talked about."

So I guess, thanks for making me a somebody.
That is, if you're successful in hurting the people you've said. and that people are bored enough to go look into your page.

And I have to admit, you're good (excluding your umm, i don't know, mediocre English language? HA!)

FYI, she was never my best friend. A friendship takes more than repaying and partying with each other.

school's getting boring!

Friday, November 07, 2008 @ 11:21 AM

IS IT ME OR IS EVERYBODY GETTING KIND OF LAZIER DURING THE FALL?

I remember during the spring quarter, despite the two 7.30s classes, I would wake up eagerly to go to school, and to make sure that I made it on time to school!

NOW?

I could barely leave the house for my 12.30pm class!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?

Anyways, I caught High School Musical 3 yesterday!
I know, I know, I am late bla bla bla, or I am already 18 and that is a Disney Production targetted towards youngsters bla bla.. Bwahaha I'm such a dork.

OK, truthfully I am writing this so that I would not be accused of neglecting my blog so, I'll just show you guys my classmates!
Yeah that's what we do when the teacher went out of the classroom for like, 5 minutes to get her things! Teehee!

Anyhow, we are going to University Village (an outdoor mall) for our class today! Toodles~~

Stella Stephanie
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